'I Am'
By: Lydia, 1999
Point of view: Scully, to Mulder
Feedback to: Lydia_Lyl@hotmail.com
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The touch I felt
consumed me so 
and I can't stop wishing
you had let me go
beyond expectations
and bariers.  Bariers you erected.
But thoughts, dejected
let me feel connected
to you.
So I sit and wait for 
another sign
that your impatience and haste
has become sublime
hope in the rain.  Sight beyond years.
Give me your fears.
I'm a good burden bearer.  I am.

The sound I heard
rang in my ears.
The verbal confirmation
of too many years
of hoping, unconscious.
Of needing, and not knowing
and wishing a knowledge
might just disappear.
Because Truth lies 
in the small recognitions
always defies
the expectations
we hold to the light, 
letting it hide.
Deep inside.
But give me your words,
Let me make sense of meaning, 
avoidance demeaning
their true intentions.
I'm a good soul searcher. I am.

Yet still I wish
To drown in your affection,
going deeper than this
superficial connection,
but rather than risking your rejection,
I'll relish this friendship
for what it is.
Denying we could feel
any more bliss
than this.
So let me be martyr
and go like a hero.
I'm a skeptic of love. I am.