The Ritter Files by Mulderslady File Nine: The Meaning of Trust DISCLAIMER: They don't belong to me, wish they did. Only Nick, Skyler, Mark, Jackie, Van and Colton James Ritter a.k.a. CJ do. RATING: Pg-13 CLASSIFICATION: S, A, M/O, MOR, POV KEYWORDS: Mulder and CJ angst, M/O, MOR, POV SPOILERS: None URL: http://www.geocities.com/Area51/Capsule/5160/ritterfiles.html FEEDBACK: Please!!! at damacia@home.com ARCHIVE: Oh yeah, anywhere!! SUMMARY: CJ Ritter meets her match in the person she least expects it. CJ's mom sets out to break up CJ and Mulder. Will she succeed? Part of The Ritter Files series ***********************%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%% %%%%%%%%%%%%%%%% How many times did we give up But we always worked things out And all my doubts and fears kept me wondering If I'd always be in love So many tears I've cried, so much pain inside But baby it ain't over 'till it's over It Ain't Over 'Til it's over by Lenny Kravitz ***********************%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%% % "Generally my dad likes Mulder, which is good because my mom is still hanging on to the animosity, trying to make me see Mulder "isn't for me"." CJ wrote into her journal furiously as Mulder painted her toenails. "Cotton Candy or light silver??" he asked after carefully separating her toes with cotton. "Light silver, I use cotton candy for my fingernails." He nodded and mixed the light silver, starting on the Big toe. "I don't understand it. Is it that she doesn't want to admit that she was wrong about him? That he is a great guy for me, color shouldn't matter?? She can never admit when she's wrong. Now I think she's trying to break us up by, as Nick put it, inserting doubt into our solid foundation of trust. Nick really should have been a psychologist or something. I fell head first for her first attempt, but my mom never banked on how understanding Mulder truly is." Journal entry Flash back the Day before CJ answered the door quickly, almost gasping when she saw him. "Andrew, hey! Long time no see." "Hey CJ, how are you??" Andrew said, stepping into the apartment. Andrew Daniels, one beautiful black man with the brains to match, my boyfriend the first year of college. My mom and dad loved him, but I went to college to earn a BA and Masters, not a MRS. Degree. As he sat on the couch and started talking about old times, I felt a slight tinge of a set up, how'd he know where I lived?? I didn't know what to expect till he kissed me. A very non-friendly kiss on the lips, which regretfully I responded to immediately, tongues battling for dominance as we devoured each other's mouths. Mulder has the best timing if your being set up. He walked through the door quietly, putting down his briefcase, grabbing a soda, heading to the bedroom when he saw us. Mulder double blinked and popped the top on his soda, taking a swig and continuing to the bedroom taking off his tie and shoes. He came back out to the living room to find me still in serious lip lock with Andrew. Mulder sighed and smiled evilly as he said "Taste good baby?" I tore from Andrew's lips quickly, staring at Mulder in horror. "Oh god Mulder, I . . ." "Fox Mulder CJ's boyfriend, You are?" Mulder said to Andrew calmly, reaching his hand out to him to shake. "Andrew Daniels." Andrew said after a moment of shock "Nice to meet you Andrew. If you're done, I wanted to ask CJ if she wanted to go out to dinner or eat here. Your welcome to join us." "Um no thank you I'll see you around CJ Bye." He said as he exited quickly. "Bye Andrew." Mulder said as he sat next to me smiling at me amused. "Oh god I'm so sorry Mulder. I . . . forgive me?" "For what? Reminiscing? I won't forgive you if you never kiss me like that." I looked at him strangely as he moved closer. "Mulder?" I blushed seeing the bulge forming in his pants as he moved closer. He leaned into her, kissing me gently on the ear, then letting his lips travel to my neck. "Mulder?" "I just got very turned on." I pushed him away and laughed. "What?! I did!" "Porno junkie." "Nothing like having it live" "Porno Addict." "You know you love me." "Terribly. However . . ." Mulder growled and moved away. "I'm sorry, Mulder." "I don't care just as long as you were just kissing." Mulder siad with an examining look. "Yes Mulder." "OK dinner?" Two days later "My mom is determined to break us up, it's a definite now. And the sad thing is it's so she doesn't have to admit she's wrong. Only problem she knows what buttons to push with me. I'm possessive over Mulder, very possessive. I know it sounds very . . . strange, but I can flirt as much as I want, however, if he flirts with another girl or another girl flirts with him, I'm instantly on him. I forget how many girls I've had to pimp slap or tell in a less than nice way he's mine back off. My mom's picked up on it and is using it for all it's worth." CJ wrote into her journal closing it and turning on the TV waiting for Mulder to come home. Next day "Hello?" Mrs. Ritter said as she answered the phone. "Hi, is Fox there?" A throaty woman's voice said. Mrs. Ritter quirked an eyebrow, who's this? "Yes, who may I say is calling?" "Diana." "OK hold on." Perfect I knew he's slip up some time, she thought as Mulder picked up the phone. Later that day "Who's Diana??? You've never told me about a Diana! No Diana works at the club!" CJ said as Mulder walked through the door. "Hey baby, what's wrong?" he asked confused "Some woman called her for you after you left, her name was Diana. I mean what is this Mulder?" Mulder double blinked, getting more confused by the minute "What is what? She's a friend of mine from Boston." "A good friend obviously, god you don't even let me call you Fox. But she's like tell Fox to call me. MY Fox is such a sweetie. MY FOX??!!!" "OK hold on CJ, I just came in let me put my stuff down." Mulder said putting down his briefcase and taking off his jacket heading to the bedroom. CJ stormed after him. "No, you're going to tell me now! Who is she?" "CJ she . . ." "NO NOW or I swear I'm packing up my stuff . . ." "OK, she was an old girlfriend back home. We broke up on good terms, we're just friends!" "Just friends? Why haven't I heard of her before?" "She was out of the country for 2 years." "Why's she calling here?" "Obviously to talk to me." Mulder siad sarcastically. "I don't want her calling here." "CJ, you're being unreasonable. She not after me!" "How do you know?" "Cause she's gay, that 's how I know that's why we broke up." "God you're just surrounded by gay people aren't you?!" CJ said rollign her eyes and throwing up her hands dramatically. "Hey that's uncalled for!! What is your problem?" "My problem is your old girlfriends showing up and calling you, looking for you and . . ." "Whoa, Whoa hey, I wasn't the one trying to taste my ex-boyfriend's tonsils on OUR COUCH!! I haven't forgotten that CJ! Diana and me are just friends period, end of discussion. GEEZ your mom is really messing with your head." "What exactly does that mean!" "You figure it out!" Mulder said sharply, his jaw tightening in anger. "NO Tell me . . ." "CJ I don't want to argue with you honey, I'm sorry. Your right." Mulder said softly, trying to calm down. "NO Mulder you won't sweet talk your way out of this. No!" "I didn't do anything!!!!!!!" Mulder screamed in frustration "Whatever! Your meeting her for dinner tonight. I think that counts as something!" "Oh CJ I . . ." "Don't lie to me!" "I'm not lying to you Damn it!" CJ slapped him hard across the face sending him reeling. "OW what the fuck was that for?!" She slapped him again. "Don't you EVER curse at me you lying bastard!!!!!" Mulder sighed loudly "CJ . . ." she stormed out of the room, "Oh baby, where you going?" CJ glared at him and walked out of the apartment. "CJ!" Mulder said jogging after her. "What is the matter with you?" He asked frustrated. "Nothing you lying jerk! How dare you!" CJ said turning on him, pounding him in the chest with her fists before breaking down into tears. "You bastard!!!!!" "Aww baby I'm sorry. I didn't mean to do what ever I did to hurt you honest." "I love you so much Mulder, I'm so sorry I hit you. Did I hurt you?" "No, no damage done. Come on you need to rest, then I'll explain everything OK?" CJ nodded clutching at him tightly as he helped her inside the apartment. Mulder threw her mom a dirty look and eased CJ on the bed. He dampened a rag with cool water and laid it on her forehead, running his fingers in light circles on her stomach and chest. "Feeling better?" "A little." "OK I'm sorry, I didn't tell you about Diana before she called and yes I did have reservations to meet her for dinner. Reservations for three, I wanted you to come with me." "OH Mulder I'm sorry I . .. " "They're not till 8, you have plenty of time to get calmed down." "My mom had me so worked up. I was so sure you were cheating on me Mulder. I don't know what possessed me." "Jealousy, but that's okay it was kind of flattering actually. You never get jealous over me." CJ smiled and petted his hair gently, letting her fingers trace down his face and over his lips. "I'm more possessive of you than you know. I send out this look like back up off my man when I go to the club with you that way no girls try to talk to you." "Oh really?" he said with an amused smile "Yeah really." CJ said sighing softly. Mulder kissed her quickly and rose to leave "No don't go. Keep doing that thing your doing on my stomach feels nice." Mulder chuckled and lightly ran his fingers over her stomach again. "Seems like your plans didn't work." CJ's dad siad as he came up behind a spying Jackie. "Only cause he's too understanding. I have to destroy her faith in him." "Well do it another time, we only have a few days left in NY and I want to enjoy them." "But Mark, your OK with this??" "Yes I'm OK with this. Our daughter is well taken care of and loved, what's not to like about this?" Mark said rolling his eyes and looking at the schedule of Broadway shows. A key rattled in the door and Skyler came through, talking with a neighbor. "Really? You're kidding? My Tiger and CJ? Yeah, I'll ask thanks Mrs. Turner. Yeah, missed you too." Skyler said coming inside, closing and relocking the door. "Nosy old bitty." He mutter under his breath as he put his bags in his room. "Hi you must be CJ's parents, I'm the lost room mate Skyler." "Hi." Her parents said appraising him carefully. "Are they in their room?" "Yeah." "Are they decent?" Skyler said with a smile as he headed to their room., "Guess I'll find out. Hey where's my TIGER?!" Skyler said opening the door slowly. "Hey Sky!" Mulder said smiling at him, turning instantly back to CJ "Hey Sky." CJ said through the rag. "OH No, what's wrong with our baby Tiger? Don't tell me you got her sick while I was gone?" CJ smiled and reached out for a hug. "Umm I missed you Sky. You have fun at your parents?" "Of course what's more fun than answering the same three questions over and over again. Have you changed your mind? Have you stopped taking it up the ass? When are you going to stop being a fag?" CJ smiled "To which you answered?" "Nope, nope, and not for a long while." CJ giggled softly, "He's awfully quiet, what you do to him honey? Mrs. Turner said you two were having a knock down drag out fight." "Diana called and wanted to meet me for dinner. CJ got jealous." Mulder said softly. "CJ? JEALOUS?! Never!" "OH stop it Sky, and I got possessive, not jealous Mulder." "If you want CJ . . . if you want to you can call me Fox." Skyler double blinked and gave him THE LOOK. "What?" "I think you're sick." Skyler said reaching across and feeling Mulder's forehead. "Stop." Mulder said, batting his hand away. "No Mulder it's okay." CJ siad with a smile "Good cause I like how you say Mulder anyway, rolling it around in your mouth till it purrs. Mulderrrrrrrrrrrr." CJ giggled again and took the rag off her face. "I love you and I'm sorry. Come here." Mulder fell into her arms and kissed her hard, tongues tasting each other as he climbed in next to her. Skyler smiled and closed the door as he left. "They OK?" Mark asked concerned. "Yeah they're making up." A loud groan came from their bedroom and Skyler smiled "And I can guarantee they're not decent now." 3 days later 5 p.m. Skyler sat on the couch next to Mulder and sighed heavily, leaning his head on Mulder's shoulder. "What's up?" "Nothing." Skyler said, running his fingers up and down Mulder's chest lightly. "Have you ever wondered what it would be like to date me Mulder?" "Ah no, why you asking? Something happen with Van?" "I . . how do you know we weren't meant to be together?" "Cause I'm not gay, Sky? What's wrong?" "Van he . . . can I kiss you Mulder?" "Well OK." Mulder puckered up expecting a quick kiss on the lips. Skyler devoured his mouth, pushing his tongue in, tasting him. Mulder tried to pull away, but Skyler held him in place. Mulder relaxed into the embrace, kissing him back. He started to feel aroused and pulled away. "Oh god are you nuts Skyler!" Mulder said, pushing away from him. "I'm sorry Mulder I'm sorry." Mulder moved to get up and saw CJ and her parents frozen to the spot staring at him "OH geeeez!" CJ frowned and headed out of the door. "Oh crap CJ! CJ, come back!" Mulder said running after her. CJ turned and slapped him hard several times. "How could you!" "It just happened, I'm sorry I . . . I didn't think he was going to kiss me like that." "Like that? You were expecting him to kiss you though?" "Yeah he asked me if he could kiss me." "And you said yes?" "Yeah I mean he kisses me all the time. We always have since we were little kids. I didn't think anything of it. I didn't think he'd kiss me like that." "You weren't fighting him much!" "Cause I . . . " CJ slapped him again. "Your gay, aren't you?!" "God no CJ, you should know that!" "No, no I should, but I don't. Are you or aren't you?" "NO I'm not! Why do you have to ask?" "Cause you gave him Tongue! That's why I have to ask. What's the matter with you Mulder?!!" "I'm sorry CJ, I . . ." CJ stormed back into the apartment and into their room. Mulder followed quickly. "What's your problem CJ, you've been flying off the handle all . . ." "Because you've been giving me just cause!!" "I have not! You refuse to listen to me and let your mom and dad manipulate . . ." CJ slapped him hard. "Don't you dare talk bad about my parents. At least they didn't beat the shit out of me like yours!!!" "That's not fair CJ. That's way below the belt." Mulder said in a warning tone, clenching and unclenching his fists. "At least they care enough about me that they wouldn't leave me in a pool of my own blood for hours before . . ." Mulder growled and slammed his fist into the wall. "SHUT UP!! SHUT THE FUCK UP! You BITCH! Who do you think you are?! I don't know why I love you! I don't know why I stay with you! You do nothing but use me till I'm an inconvenience then throw me away! You don't care a thing about me except what you can get out of me!" Mulder said, grabbing his jacket and storming out of the apartment. CJ came out of the room a few moments later, eyes red, face tear streaked. "Mulder? Did he leave?" she asked concerned. "Yeah he did." Her dad asked surprised at her question. "Oh my god no!" CJ said running out into the hall and down the stairs. She saw him start up his car and called out after him. "Mulder! Don't go Mulder! Please come back, let's talk I'm sorry!" Mulder glared at her and sped off. CJ came back up the stairs and crumpled into Skyler's arms. "I'm so sorry CJ, I didn't mean to . . . do you want me to leave?" "No, No." she said hugging him tighter. Skyler helped her to her room holding her, trying desperately to soothe her. "Well mission accomplished Jackie, how do you feel?" Mark said with a disappointed sigh. Jackie threw him an anguished looka nd wlaked away quickly. 4 a.m. Mulder came back to the apartment and walked into their bedroom. Skyler held CJ tightly against him as she slept peacefully. "Hey Tiger, feeling better?" "Yeah thanks, how is she?" Mulder asked softly as he took off his jacket. "OK now. She finally got to sleep. She was worried out of her mind you wouldn't come back." "I love her too much to leave." "That's what I told her." Mulder smiled and reached for her. "I'll take over from here. Thanks for taking care of my girl." "Anytime." Skyler said handing her to Mulder, who held her against him tenderly. CJ snuggled into him more taking a deep breath, catching his scent. Her eyes snapped open and she locked her eyes on him. "Oh god Mulder! I was so sure you would never come back. I thought I'd lost you for good. I'm so sorry I hurt you. I'm sorry I never listen to you. I promise I'll love you better, I promise!" "Oh CJ you know I love the way you love me. I didn't mean what I said I was just angry." "I know, but it's true, I'm sorry I brought up the . . ." "It's okay, you were upset. I promise to not kiss Skyler again OK?" "No, no it's a friendship thing, Skyler explained it while we waited up for you. He explained a lot about you to me." "Oh really?" "Yeah, your both from abusive homes, you were the only family you had. He said you were the only one to support him when he came out. The only one who stood by him. You two kiss to demonstrate a bond. He offered to stop too, but that wouldn't be right. You know you two should have been brothers." Mulder smiled "Thanks CJ." "I even got an apology out for my mom! She said she still doesn't like you." "I can live with that." "Have you ever slept with a man before?" CJ asked after a long silence. "No." "A boyfriend I had . . . he was gay. He . . used me to find out if he really was gay or not. He never told me, I ended up walking in on him with another man. I've never felt so low in my life." "I would never do that to you CJ. You know that I will never intentionally hurt you." "I know I'm sorry I hurt you. I love you Mulder, I'll try harder to love you the way you deserve to be." 10 a.m. CJ's mom went to check on her. "CJ honey, you need anything?" "Oh harder Mulder, please I love you so much." CJ said as Mulder pumped into her harder, his mouth devouring hers as he hummed with pleasure. Her mom closed the door quickly and hurried back into the kitchen. "He came home about 4 this morning." Skyler said, handing her a cup of coffee, " Are they making up?" "Yeah they are. He really loves her doesn't he?" "Yeah desperately. I really don't' know what he'd do if they ever broke up again. When they did during that Kevin thing, man he was lost. Didn't eat, couldn't sleep, called her constantly begging her for another chance, a total mess." Her mom smiled and sighed heavily, maybe he is perfect for CJ, she thought as she sipped her coffee silently. Next morning CJ came out of the bedroom pouring two cups of coffee, running back to the bed. She smiled as she nuzzled his neck with her nose. He smiled, opening his hazel eyes watching her. "Hey pretty boy here." CJ said, handing him his coffee. "Thanks CJ . . ." "We're going out today. I'm going to take YOU shopping." "CJ . . ." "I want to." "CJ, your not listening." "Oh sorry." "You can stop apologizing, let's just . . ." "Mulder . . . Oh sorry, interrupting." "I don't want you to be the perfect girlfriend, I just want you to be yourself." "I am! I'm just doing everything I've thought of doing, but didn't do." "Oh well then, BRING IT ON!" CJ giggled looking at his hand concerned "Your hand looks a little swollen. I want to get that looked at first, does it hurt?" "A little." She held it gently in her hand and locked eyes with him again. "CJ . . ." He put his other hand over hers "Marry me CJ." "Not yet Mulder, but I'll think about it seriously." "That's better than no. You need to get your hair done." "And my nails." "Gotta keep my baby looking good."Mulder said running the back of his hand across her cheek. "Same here, you could definitely use a trim and a manicure. Come on get up, got a lot to do today."