Tough Love by Mulderslady




DISCLAIMER: They don't belong to me, wish they did.  Only Skyler
Wilson does.
RATING: R to NC-17
CLASSIFICATION:  A, Slash, Mulder/other 
KEYWORDS: Slash, Mulder/other, angst
SPOILERS: none
URL: www.geocities.com/Area51/Capsule/toughlove.html
FEEDBACK: Please! at damacia@home.com
ARCHIVE: Oh yeah, anywhere!!
SUMMARY: Mulder's Lover's personal demons threaten their
relationship


"What?! I don't believe you Skyler! No, of course I'm pissed that was
my favorite . . . Why are you rearranging my stuff anyway?  Sky  . . .
Sky  . . .  Skyler! Listen no.  . . . leave it alone! Well if you don't like it
leave! Fine!"  Mulder slammed down the phone and let out a deep sigh.
"Relationship problems?"
"Is it a good or bad sign Scully when they start cleaning and
rearranging your apartment?"
"Depends on why they're doing it."  Mulder chuckled softly and sat in
his chair.
"Said it was cluttered, so got rid of my TV and my Fish tank."
"Ouch! Well you never feed your fish anyway."
"Doesn't matter, they were still mine and my TV? Why my TV? I'll
never get to sleep now."
"Maybe that's the point.  Skyler obviously doesn't want you to be lulled
to sleep by the TV anymore."    Mulder smiled
"Maybe your right."
"Either way you need a night out and away from that mess."
"Any suggestions?"
"Maybe.  I'll pick you up at about seven.  Casual attire required." 
Mulder nodded and reached for the phone as it rang again.
"Mulder.  No you can not get rid of my couch.  NO! Skyler!"


Scully knocked on Mulder's door and waited.
"I got it Mulder!  Hello."
"Hi" Scully said looking at the handsome man with curly black hair,
mint green eyes and dimples.
"You must be Scully come on in.  I'm Skyler."  Scully smiled and
nodded while mentally her jaw dropped.  A guy?!  Skyler's a guy?! 
Mulder appeared in a nice beige sweater and jeans and kissed Skyler
sweetly on the lips.
"Look I'm sorry about getting mad at you, but don't ever touch my
couch or TV again."  Skyler smiled at him then said.
"Ok, ok, Scully's here."  Mulder turned and smiled at her.
"Hey Scully, you met Skyler?"
"Uh kinda, not formally."
"Dr. Dana Scully, this is Skyler Wilson."
"Nice to finally meet you Skyler.  All I hear at work is your name
screamed into a phone."  Skyler chuckled
"Same here.  He's told me so much about you, I feel like I've been your
partner for 7 years.  You two have fun, I'm going to work on Mulder's
bedroom.  Maybe , just maybe he has a bed under all that junk."
"Remember what I said Skyler."
"I know no TV, no couch and none of your playboys."  Mulder laughed
and kissed him again and left.
"He's cute Mulder."  Scully said.  Of all the things she hadn't dreamed
Mulder was gay, but this was neat in a way.  She finally felt
comfortable talking with him about other guys.
" Yeah, isn't he?  A handful though."
"You always liked a challenge."  



Skyler was playing on Mulder's computer when a screen popped up.
"Journal entry for the day?"  Skyler read intrigued.  Mulder keeps a
journal?  He looked through his programs till he found it, pulled it up
and stopped.  This was Mulder's private stuff, his private thoughts and
feelings, I have no right to read this.  There is no way around it your
going to read it Skyler so just go ahead and do it.  Skyler clicked back
1 year and started on the entry he
wrote the day he met him.
"Skyler.  Skyler Wilson.  Even his name is beautiful.  I have to see him
again.  I haven't felt this way in a long time.  He's probably involved
with someone else though, plus I'm still conflicted."
Conflicted?  He read on, fluff about their relationship, his job, then,
"It happened again.  I almost lost her before I could tell her how I felt
about her.  This is so strange.  I love Dana Scully.  I'm in love with her. 
I have been for awhile, but I love Skyler.  I'm in love with Skyler.  No
matter how maddening and frustrating he is sometimes.  He's such a
neat freak.  I wish he would touch me, he never does, he never wants
me.  He just wants to talk and
make out nothing more.  I want him, I want him bad.  Maybe that's the
problem, I wouldn't have these feeling s for Scully if I was being
satisfied with my relationship with Skyler."  Skyler double blinked. 
Mulder wanted him?  Wanted to sleep with him?  Wanted to make love
to him?  Skyler gulped why not, why hadn't you thought that?  He
asked you to move in with him, didn't he?  He's serious about you,
about us.

"I almost kissed her today, this is crazy.  I'm in love with Skyler, aren't
I?  Why do I have these feelings for Scully?  I want Skyler so bad, I
watched him sleeping today and kept imagining holding him to the bed
as I finally found my release.  Two cold showers later, I was back to
normal. Will I still be in love with him after we finally consummate our
relationship?  Or will I decide that I need to be with Scully?  What
makes you think Scully's even interested?"  Skyler
shook off the feeling of dread he had as he read the last entry.

"We slept on the couch together.  He slept right on my chest and didn't
do a thing.  That hurts; doesn't he love me? Doesn't he want me?  I
wanted to flip him over and take him right there.  Doesn't he know
what he does to me?"  Skyler quickly closed down the file and sat
staring at the blank screen.  Skyler hadn't given himself to anyone since
Robert.  He'd broken his heart and his psyche like he was a toy.  Skyler
didn't trust people readily anymore, and most of his relationships
suffered.  Mulder was a different story, they were so alike.  He loves
me, wants me, if only I could. I'm sure he'd be a gentle lover, he was
always gentle with me.  Skyler went back into Mulder's bedroom and
looked at his handy work.  Under the pile of magazines and files, there
was a perfectly comfy queen-size bed.  Skyler put fresh sheets on the
bed, I don't want to be hurt
again, he thought as he fluffed up the pillows and laid them on the bed.



Mulder unlocked the door and stepped into the darkness.  He and
Scully had a nice discussion about Skyler.  He can't believe how she can
draw him out and point him in the direction he needed so quickly and
precisely.  Talk with him, tell him your feelings ask him why he can't
take the last step towards intimacy.    
"He can't be waiting till you two are married.  I'd love to see you
explain to Skinner why you were in Hawaii on business."  She teased. 
She's right though, we need to talk.  A light came on all of a sudden,
illuminating Skyler in the doorway of the bedroom.
"Hey Mulder."
"Hey what are you doing in there?"
"Getting ready for bed, you should have told me what a nice bed you
had under all that junk."
"I kinda forgot I had it."  Mulder said brushing past him lightly, taking
off his sweater.  Skyler watched him as he undressed.  Mulder was
gorgeous, that golden hue, well toned swimmer's body, moving
gracefully across the floor.
"You folded my underwear?"
"Conserves space."  Mulder smiled and shook his head as he pulled out
a pair of black silk boxers.
"Well I'm going to take a shower."
"OK."  Mulder smiled at Skyler again then went over to him and kissed
him hungrily on the lips.  Mulder pulled away a little shocked at himself
and headed into the bathroom.  Skyler touched his kiss-swollen lips,
maybe this isn't a good idea.  He tied his pajama bottoms tighter around
his waist.  It even surprised Mulder how intense he was.  He wouldn't
be able to control himself if I gave him what he wanted.  Skyler climbed
under the covers and waited.  Mulder came out of the bathroom and
looked at the bed.  I hope this happens, Mulder thought as he climbed
in next to him. 

Mulder looked at Skyler for a second, his sculpted face, curly hair.  He
let his hand wander across his neck lightly.  Mulder's fingers burned in
little circles on Skyler's arm.  Mulder shifted closer getting more
comfortable, he traced Skyler's muscular torso tenderly, tickling his
nipples lightly.  Skyler let out a gasp and Mulder went in for the kill,
kissing him lightly on his chest and neck.  He claimed his lips, gently
inserting his tongue and tasting him.  He loved the way he tasted, tangy
and sweet like an orange.  Mulder wrapped his arms around him pulling 
him closer, tangling his fingers in his hair.  Mulder let a hand wander to
Skyler's side and slide lower to the waistband of
his pajamas.  Skyler whimpered slightly and Mulder increased the
intensity of the kiss, his tongue attacking Skyler's mouth with gentle
viciousness as Mulder got his hand under Skyler's waistband.  Mulder
grinded into him, his erection stabbing Skyler's thigh as he took hold of
Skyler's cock and started to stroke it.
"No!"  Skyler said pushing away from Mulder quickly.
"What? Why not?"
"No Mulder.  I don't want to talk about it."
"Dang it Skyler.  I love you.  I want you, are you aware of how badly I
need you right now?"
"Mulder please I . . ."
" Is it me? Your not sexually attracted to me?"
"No that's not it Mulder."
"Am I your first . . .Will I be the first time you . . "
"NO."
"Then what?"
"I can't . . .I can't ."
"Look I refuse to spend another night on the couch dreaming about
making love to you, just tell me."
"Why is this an issue? Aren't you happy with what I can give you?"  
Skyler screamed at him.  Mulder was shocked for a second, Skyler
rarely lost his temper.
"Yes, I'm happy with it.  I can live with it, but I want to know why I
have to."  Skyler sighed heavily and turned away from Mulder.  Mulder
let out an angry growl and turned him back 
"No we are going to talk about this Skyler! I'm in love with you, I want
this to work please.  Talk to me.  I'm tired of feeling this way.  I'm
horny all the time, frustrated just tell me what I need to do."
"Just leave me alone Mulder.  Stop all this.  I can kiss you and touch
you but nothing more.  Please not right now."
"Fine, can I hold you right now?"
" Fine."  Mulder gathered Skyler to him and held him running his
fingers lightly through his curly hair till he fell asleep.


2 weeks later

Skyler felt something warm snake around his middle and slip his boxers
off.
"Mul . . ."  He said turning to look at him.  Mulder put a finger to his
lips then he ran them lightly over his face and turned him back. Skyler
tensed a little, what's he doing?  He felt something nestle between his
butt cheeks and tried to pull away.  Mulder tightened his grip around
his waist and started to stroke Skyler rhythmically.
"Please don't do this Mulder, Please."  Mulder stopped and let out a
disgusted sigh.
"I can't keep this up Skyler.  This sounds selfish, but I think you need
to leave."
"Why?"
"You know why."
"Just cause I won't have sex with you?"
"I don't trust myself with you.  I could have easily taken you right then
and there would have been nothing you could do about it.  Skyler this
is serious.  I want that intimacy you're denying me."
"No."
"Then we need to end this."
"NO."
"What?"
" NO Mulder.  I don't want to I . .  I love you too much."  Mulder
smiled
"Sky please, if you can't tell me what's wrong, tell someone else,
someone who can help."
"Are you suggesting couples counseling Mulder?" Skyler teased.
"Yes, yes I am."  Skyler turned to face Mulder, who had a serious look
on his normally  deadpan face.
"Well alright."
"Meet me at work tomorrow about 6.  I made a 6:30 appointment with
the counselor."  Skyler nodded and rested his head on Mulder's chest
and settled in for the night.


5:50 p.m. J Edgar Hoover building



Skyler had never come to visit Mulder at work.  This bastion of male
pheromones made Skyler nervous.  He didn't want to cause Mulder any
problems.  Skyler passed through the metal detectors and asked the
guard.
"Where is Fox Mulder's office?"
"Spooky? Elevators, go down to the basement where we keep all the
kooks."
"Uh thanks."  Spooky? Skyler smiled something to tease him about
later.  A few women did a double take and eyed him like a grade A
steak in the elevator.  I' m sure glad Mulder isn't here, he tends to have
a jealous streak.  He'd probably pull his gun on them.  Skyler got off
the elevator at the basement floor.
" Scully! Just once see it my way."
"I have Mulder, but the facts prove otherwise look, lets find something
we do agree on ok?  Did you talk with Skyler?"
"Yes what's that got to do with anything?"  Yeah Skyler thought
keeping out of sight.
"Cause you've been nothing but punchy and edgy for 2 weeks."  Skyler
watched Mulder smile softly and say
"Sexual frustration and the X-files don't mix, huh Scully?"
"Exactly."
"Actually things came to a head about two weeks ago and especially
last night, our second two sided argument in as many weeks.  I've never
seen him so mad."
" What you do?"
"What do you mean? To get him upset? I'd rather not tell you."
"Something stupid no doubt."  Mulder chuckled
"Yeah really stupid but I countered, we're seeing a therapist tonight."
"Couples counseling? That sounds like the talk of a serious man."
"I am Scully, this is so strange to me.  I'm really in love with Skyler." 
Scully smiled and hugged him.
"Never thought I'd here you say that about anyone Mulder."
"Neither did I.  I just really want this to work." Skyler decided to make
his presence known and knocked on the door.
"Come in."
"Strange place for the best of the best to be."
"Hey Skyler."  Scully said as Mulder reached for him and engaged him
in a gentle kiss.  Skyler blushed and pushed him away, looking around
nervously.
"I missed you today."  Mulder said quietly then turning to Scully, "Ok
so you got this under wraps Scully?"
"Yep you two have fun."   Mulder grabbed his briefcase and jacket, and
followed Skyler out of the door.  Mulder reached for Skyler's hand as
they exited the elevator, when he didn't feel it he looked back at him
confused.
"See you found him."  The guard said as they left.
"Yeah." 
"Did you find bigfoot when you went?"
"No actually the Lochness monster, Bigfoot's supposed to be coming
down next week."  Mulder said calmly as he reholstered his gun and
picked up his briefcase.  Skyler giggled 
"Are they usually that mean?"
"Worse."  Mulder said reaching for his hand again.
"Skyler."  Mulder whined
"What?"
"No one will care if I hold your hand."
"I just don't want anyone thinking that   . . ."
"That what?  I'm a fag? I'm queer?  I'm gay, I don't care, and they don't
care.  I could probably have sex with you in the front lobby and they
wouldn't care as long as we didn't block traffic."  Skyler snort laughed
and tentatively held Mulder's hand.



Therapist's office



Mulder sat calmly reading an issue of Consumer reports while Skyler
fidgeted in his chair.  It felt like everyone was staring at him, they knew
they were here cause of a relationship problem. 
"Mr. Mulder, the doctor will see you now."
"Come on Skyler."  

"Fox! Long time no see.  I actually thought I'd never see you again."
"Fat chance, I'm always going to be screwed up."
"Now on the phone you said it was a relationship problem.  I'm glad
you're starting to go out again.  After Phoebe I didn't think you'd ever
bounce back."  Phoebe? Skyler thought, his eyebrow quirking slightly.
"Yeah, you really helped me through that, but its more for my partner
than me."
"Really.  What seems to be the problem? Commitment shy?  Fear of
intimacy?"
"Definitely."
"Who's your friend?"
"This is Skyler Wilson."  Skyler shook her hand firmly, saying Hi softly.
"He's my lover."  Mulder continued.  Both Skyler and the therapist
tensed.
"OH! So how long have you two been seeing each other?"
"Over a year."
"Well that is a long time.  I see why he won't commit."
"What do you mean?"
"He's not comfortable."
"Huh?" Skyler said truly confused.
"With you, he's not comfortable.  You've been hurt before haven't you
Skyler?  Rejected and abandoned? Ostracized for your sexual
preference?"  Skyler sat slack jawed and Mulder laughed.
"You still got it Meg.  She did the same thing to me when I first came
here. And people call me Spooky."
"You are, but we won't go there right now.  Now what kind of
commitment do you want? Do you two live together?"
"Yes we do."
"So . . . the problem?"
Mulder shifted and looked at Skyler and smiled.
"Um I have a problem with um . . I . . . we haven't . . ."  Skyler started
hesitatingly
"Yes?"  Mulder started to explain when Meg stopped him.
"No Fox, let him tell me."
"I have . . . we haven't had sex yet and it's kinda causing a strain on our
relationship." Skyler said blushing wildly.
"Why was that so hard to say Skyler?"
"I don't know."
"Cause your not comfortable with our relationship.  You should have
seen him when he met me at work today."
"That's the FBI, I can't grab you and give you a big sloppy kiss in the
middle of the lobby."
"Why not?"
"Fox stop.  You're intimidating him."  Mulder smiled and lightly
caressed Skyler's hair.  Skyler pulled away from him slightly.
"Mulder stop.  Skyler I'll see you every night about this time be
alright?"
"Whoa, I thought we were doing this together?"
"You will eventually , but you seem to need one on one attention
without Mulder around."  Mulder feigned a look of shock.
"Yes you, I'll see you at 6:30 tomorrow Skyler."  Mulder rose and
headed out he door.
"Thanks Meg."




6 months later


"Mulder are you sure?"
"Positive, why not it will be fun."
"It's an FBI picnic."
"So? Are you ready yet?"  Skyler came out and looked at Mulder who
was waiting in the kitchen in a pair of khaki's and a black shirt.  He
smiled at Skyler
"But I don't think we should dress alike."  Skyler smiled and went to
change his shirt.

Park

Mulder grabbed a soda and looked over the crowd.  Skyler seemed to
be doing well, more comfortable with him and there relationship.  He
wished he'd told him about his past abusive relationship he could have
helped.  His was like a male Phoebe.  He smiled at him when he made
eye contact and motioned for him to come over.
"Hey Spooky, where your girlfriend?"
"Oh you mean Agent Scully? She's over there with her boyfriend Zach."
"Oh" That shut him up, though Zach is cute.
"Hey Mulder, this isn't so bad."
"Yeah, at least the food's good." Skyler chuckled then he grabbed
Mulder's face with one hand and was moving in for a kiss but quickly
said "got it" when a woman came up to Mulder.  Mulder looked
annoyed and turned to face the woman.  She was about 40 years old,
beautiful brown hair, and big brown eyes framed by laugh lines.
"Diana Hi!"  
"Fox how are you? Who's your friend?"   Mulder smiled ruefully and
started
"He's my lo . . ."
"Roommate, I'm his Roommate Skyler."  
"Skyler, nice to meet you.  What do you do?"
"I write a commentary column for the Post."
" That's where I heard your name from, Skyler Wilson right?  So did
you move Fox?"
"Yeah same building, bigger apartment."
"Well that's nice." Diana said smiling at Skyler with obvious interest.
"So are you seeing anyone in particular Skyler.  Maybe we could hook
up some time and go out to dinner, talk or something?"
"Ah sorry but I have been involved with some one for a while."
"Serious?"
"Yeah" Skyler said when he felt Mulder give him the evil eye.  Mulder
rewarded him by excusing himself to go talk with Scully, leaving him
with Diana.  Mulder's coworkers sure are chatty, Skyler thought as he
nodded and acted interested. 



Mulder climbed into bed and looked at Skyler and sighed.  His burning
desire for him raged.  He was in a state of permanent arousal all day. 
He lightly played with his hair and Skyler leaned into his hand.  Mulder
moved closer and laid gentle kisses on his face and neck.  His hands
kneaded the strong muscles in his back as he kissed down to his chest. 
Skyler gasped and Mulder captured his mouth with his.  He rolled
Skyler on his back and continued his seduction.  Mulder mentally told
himself to take it slow.  He wanted their first time perfect.  As he kissed
and licked at his neck and collarbone, Skyler lay unresponsive, almost
ridged and Mulder stopped 
"What? You okay?"
"What are you doing to me Mulder?"
"I'm trying to seduce you."
"Oh."
"Is it working?"
"Oh yeah."
"Good."  Mulder said as he continued to focus his attention on him.  He
lightly ran just his fingertips along Skyler's skin, teasing it, making him
shiver slightly.  Skyler started exploring Mulder and kissed him right
under his chin and smiled when Mulder let out a groan of pleasure. 
Mulder hungrily feed on Skyler's lips and his hands traveled to Skyler's
boxers yanking them off.  He grabbed his cock in hand and started
stroking it lovingly. Skyler groaned with
pleasure and started moving into his hand.  He was beautiful writhing
under his hand, Mulder thought I can't get enough of him.  His own
cock was painfully hard.  He started to stroke himself to relieve the
pressure, when he felt his hand batted away and something wet and
warm close on it.  Mulder looked down to see Skyler going down on
him and he lost all control.  He released Skyler's cock and clutched his
shoulders tightly.  He gripped handfuls of his curly hair
and started moaning and whimpering as his climax came.  He screamed
Skyler's name as he came in a rush and collapsed next to him, partially
sated.
"Oh Dang, give me a second."  He said, his breathing erratic, his face
flushed, "Wow that was amazing.  What are you doing?"  Mulder asked
as he saw Skyler licking at his cock. 
"Cleaning you off, what's it look like."  Skyler did a final slow seductive
lick and kissed him on his chest.
"Now for you."  Mulder said going down in the bed till Skyler grabbed
his shoulders and stopped him, nodding no.
"Why not?"
"I want you inside me."  Mulder's semi-erect cock stood at attention
when he heard that 
"Turn over."
"No, I want to watch you."  Mulder smiled and kissed him gently on
the chest.
"Let me get something real quick."  Mulder said reaching for his
dresser drawer.
"Just condoms."
"But . . ."
"Already lubed and waiting."  Mulder put on a condom quickly and
climbed back in bed kissing him hungrily on the lips and placing a finger
at the ring of his anus.  Skyler squirmed a little and Mulder quickly put
in a second then a third finger, relaxing and stretching Skyler then he
withdrew them.  He nipped, kissed and suckled his neck as he entered
Skyler carefully, moaning slightly. 
He slowly buried himself inside Skyler and stopped, letting him get
used to the sensation.
"Okay?"
"Yeah fine."  Skyler said rocking back and forth on Mulder's cock
trying to make him start.
"Good, cause you're in for the ride of your life."  Mulder said as he
pulled out almost to the tip then plunged back in.  Mulder continued to
thrust into him gently till he felt Skyler relax, then he pumped into him
harder, his breathing ragged, his eyes closed in concentration.  He felt
Skyler touch his face and he looked at him.
"Don't, I want to watch you watching me."  They peered into each
other's eyes, then Mulder attacked Skyler's lips and neck again. 
Skyler's erection was bulging painfully, he reached to relieve it when
Mulder grasped it firmly with both hands, working it to a release.  Both
men came hard and loud, collapsing on each other in a sated, sweaty
mass.
" Now that was truly mind blowing." Skyler said clutching Mulder to
his chest.
"Yeah it was, can we do it again?"



Next day therapy




Mulder couldn't keep his hands off of Skyler, all he could think about
was last night, and getting him home so he could repeat it.
"Stop."  Mulder touched his thigh again.
"Mulder stop!"  Skyler whispered sternly.
"Mr. Wilson, the doctor will see you now."


"Hello you two."  Skyler sat down and Mulder sat down right beside
him, putting his arm around him and kissing him on the cheek.  Meg
looked at them and smiled.  Mulder smiled at Skyler and tried to kiss
him again.
"Stop."  Skyler sighed heavily.
"So I take it that you two recently consummated your relationship?" 
Skyler blushed and Mulder beamed with obvious pride saying 
"Yeah, last night it was . . ." Skyler elbowed him in the ribs.
"What? She's a therapist, she's not going to tell anyone.  It was
absolutely . . ."
"Mulder!"
"What? Hey check out the hickeys I gave him."  Mulder started to pull
down the neck of Skyler's turtleneck and Skyler smacked his hands
away.
"Mulder! Stop it right now Geez!"  Mulder gave him an amused smile
and touched his thigh lightly.  Skyler bolted up off the couch.
"Mulder stop.  You're pushing it." Meg said sternly
"He's been like that all day."  Skyler said exasperated.
"What? I'm happy.  I want everyone to know."
"Well, maybe I don't."
"Why not?"
"It's not . ."
"God Skyler, you so far in the closet the moths think your clothes.  I
don't care what people think or say."
"I do!"  Mulder sighed softly and moved over to the other side of the
couch.
"Go ahead Skyler, what do you mean?"
"Yeah enlighten us."
"Cause I don't want people to know that I'm gay.  They don't need to
know. They just . . . It's between Mulder and me.  I'm Skyler Wilson,
not some fag writer."
"OK! Mulder calmly tell him why you feel the way you do."
" I like showing affection in public. I always have with any of my
relationships gay or other wise.  I've had to face ridicule all my life and
I know how you feel, but you need to understand how I feel and why I
believe we shouldn't hide our relationship.  Plus you can't give a guy
absolutely nothing for a year and a half, give him some and not expect
him to be all over you the next day."  Mulder said and smiled at him
sweetly.  Skyler grinned, but still sat away from
him.  Meg noticed the closed off body language and said
"Mulder why don't you wait outside, I need to talk with Skyler alone." 
Mulder sighed heavily and left.
"Fox can be an overwhelming personality."  Skyler crumpled into a
mass of tears, sobbing hysterically.


2 hrs later



Meg called Mulder back in.
"Skyler has serious problems concerning his sexuality.  He needs some
space and intense therapy.  I've set up his sessions but it's a good idea
that you don't sleep with him till he has things worked out."
"So did our . . When we made love last night did that cause . ."
"It didn't help, but this stems from his previous abusive relationships. 
The way it seems, you're the only positive relationship he's had in years. 
Just be supportive.  You do have a second bedroom right?"
"Yeah, sleep in it?"
"Till he's through this."



Mulder sat on his bed alone and wide-awake.  God I want to . .
.Mulder sighed and his cock ached.  Well back to my old tricks Mulder
thought as he switched on the TV, turning the sound down.  He flicked
through the channels hoping to find something good, he left it on the
playboy channel for a second. Nothing good.  He turned to the weather
channel and snuggled under the covers.  He started to massage his
aching cock, stroking and swirling trying to imitate what Skyler
did with his tongue.  He came and wiped himself off, it wasn't the same;
he felt empty.  He wanted Skyler.

2 months later

Skyler picked up the phone.
"Hello."
"Hi Skyler? This is Diana."
"Oh Hi how are you?"
"Fine I was wondering if you would like to come to a play with me. My
date canceled last minute."  Skyler thought for a second,
"Sure why not, what time?"



Midnight



Mulder came in the door, it took all night but he finally finished that
profile on the Sears Mangler.  He hoped they'd catch him before he
struck again.  He heard some noises and thought it was Skyler having a
nightmare.  He'd been having those a lot lately.  Mulder took off his
jacket and went to check on him, gasping loudly when he saw them. 
Skyler had Diana against the headboard slamming into her, and from
the sounds Diana was making, doing a good job of it.  Before he could
stop himself, he grabbed Skyler and tore him off her, screaming,
"What the F . . .What do you think your doing?"
"What it look like Fox?"
"Shut up Diana! Skyler what is wrong with you! You feel insecure and
uncertain about your sexuality and our relationship and you go screw
my ex-wife!"
"Your relationship?! What, Skyler?"
"OH you didn't tell her? I'm not surprised.  Let me explain.  That
roommate stuff he threw at you during the picnic wasn't quite accurate. 
He's my lover. He's been my lover for over a year and a half, till now!"
"Lover?! Skyler?"
"ARGGHHH!!!!!!! Why'd you have to do that Mulder?"
"This is our place, that's our bed, and I refuse to allow you to screw my
ex-wife in it! Dang it Skyler, I've given you enough leeway to find
yourself and you go do this. I' m tired, I can't take this anymore. I
wont.  Get out both of you! Get Out!"  With that Mulder left the room
and slammed his bedroom door.



Meg's office



"I did something stupid last night Meg."
"What?"
"I slept with some one, it wasn't Mulder.  It just happened to be his
ex-wife."
"So you slept with a woman.  How did you feel?"
"Empty, I felt incomplete.  Mulder completes me, I know that now but
I think I've ruined it forever.  He won't talk with me."  At that moment
the door opened and Mulder walked in looking disheveled, bags under
his bloodshot eyes.  
"Mulder look, I'm sorry . . ."
"I want you out of my house first thing tomorrow.  All your stuff,
everything."
"Mulder . . ."
"We're through Skyler.  You made that quite clear."
"That won't happen again.  I promise.  I love you, I . . "
"Do you know how badly you hurt me?  I would give you another
chance, but I don't trust you.  I'm sorry it has to be this way.  I'm too
old and tired to have to deal with this Skyler. Now be out of my house
by tomorrow and leave my key on the table."  Mulder got up and left. 
Skyler sighed
"I blew it, didn't I?'"
"Yeah Skyler, I think you did."


2 weeks later



"It's addressed to you Mulder" Scully said handing him an envelope
with his name printed on it.  Mulder slowly looked up, these past 2
weeks had been hard for him.  Skyler's betrayal tore Mulder's soul in
half.  He's finally beginning to pick up the pieces.  Mulder looked at the
letter quickly, his eyes grew wide and he slapped the letter down and
ran out of the room.  Scully looked at the letter quickly and followed, it
simply said,

"I'm sorry I hurt you.  I never will again.
Skyler"


"Where are you going Mulder? Mulder?"
" A warehouse.  It's where I met Skyler." Scully held on as Mulder
made a sharp left into a parking lot.  He ran into the warehouse and
saw Skyler hanging at least 6 feet off the ground.  Mulder ran over to
him.
"Skyler! Scully call 911 now!"
"Step ahead of you partner."  Mulder stood under him trying
desperately to stop the rope from cutting off his air supply.
"God Skyler don't do this to me, not yet. Please god I love you Sky
please."  Mulder said tears coming down his cheeks as he held Skyler
up.  He felt cold, but Mulder wouldn't give up.
"Mulder move, I'm going to shoot him down."  Scully said as backup
arrived. Mulder stepped away just as Scully shot the rope loose.  Skyler
came tumbling to the floor, crumpling with a groan.
"I think he's still alive Scully!"  Scully checked his pulse and nodded
"Yeah, weak but there."
"Skyler, Please Sky I'm sorry I doubted you. I love you, you know that
right? Come on buddy, deep breaths."  A faint smile touched Skyler's
lips,
"You bastard, you just won't let me die."
"You've got to be kidding me." Mulder said as the paramedics come in.



Hospital


Mulder came into Skyler's room and sat on this bed watching him sleep. 
He held his hand tenderly between his own.
"God you scared me Sky.  I thought I'd lost you, before I could tell you
that I still love you. You're a hard man to get over you know."  Skyler
smiled and turned his light green wonders towards Mulder.
"Hey." 
"Hey yourself."
"I'm sorry, I've been such an ass."
"And such a nice one too.  Sorry bad joke, it's okay happens to the best
of us."
"Can we start over Mulder?  I really want this to work between us." 
Mulder leaned forward and kissed his forehead.
"Of course we can."
"Do we still have to see Meg?"
"Of course you do."  Skyler sighed heavily then watched as his nurse
came in.
"Well hello. Your finally awake."  She said as she checked his vitals.
"Yeah finally awake."
"Oh, one of the nursing assistants thinks you're the cutest.  She wanted
to know if you were seeing anyone."  Skyler smiled and looked at
Mulder, squeezing his hand lightly, 
"Yeah I am and he gets really jealous."