Unrequited Friendship
by: Rea Gallardo

Silently my friend I weep...
Though my heart is yours to keep.

Time has taught me to keep my heart silent,
It screams out to you,
But I never really knew what it meant.

Somehow I've always known you were one of a kind,
Somehow, you've always been on my confused mind.

Whenever you come to me with your heart torn and broken,
How I wish I could carry all your burden,
To ease your pain and dry your tears,
To keep you from harm, and from the things that you fear...

You will have a best friend again,
I know it wont be with me,
But I'd like to show you that whatever happens,
I will hold you by your hand,
Ready to listen,to care and to understand.

To you I will only be seen as just a psychotic friend,
But I will always picture you as a special friend,
You mean more to me than I could ever let you see
And my heart shall sing ur name... SILENTLY...

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I thought I could fool myself longer
That there was nothing wrong
I thought I could pull myself together
But I realized that it wasn't for long

You told me things would be fine
And that I was all that mattered
But I found out and it was just a line
When you held me and loved her

You told me I held your heart
So I gave mine to you
But yours was with her from the start
Though I held yours so true

Maybe I was a fool to believe
That I could love for the two of us
Thinking that you wouldn't leave
And wouldn't stay because you must

We worked things out and hoped we could pull through
But love was something that you lack
And though I love you
I won't hold you back

If

If only I didn't love you so much
Then maybe I wouldn't be hurting so
If only I didn't dream of your touch
Then maybe I could just let go

If only my thoughts didn't belong to you
Then maybe my tears wouldn't be flowing
If only my heart wasn't as true
Then maybe I could stop falling

If only I tried to tell how I feel
Then maybe this love wouldn't drive me insane
If only there was a way to make this wish real
Then maybe I wouldn't love you in vain

If only I didn't have myself to lose
Then maybe I would've gathered courage and held his love to offer
If only my holding back told me its use
Then maybe I wouldn't be caught in this sweet surrender

If only you weren't just my friend
Then maybe...just maybe...
I wouldn't have to pretend

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She wished to find a love so true
And the one person who could give it to her
Just hoping that she would be able to do
All she could to keep him from leaving ever

She didn't think he'd soon come along
Simply because some wishes dot come true
But he did and it was perfect, nothing could go wrong
After all he loved her too

She'd wake up just to smile throughout the day
And in his own way he did the same
He'd sweep her off her feet and carry her away
To the sunset, with a sky that carved out her name

She dreamt and he dreamt with her
Of things that only their minds could conceive
What it was that their dreams really were it didn't matter
Just as long as they had faith and believed

She tried but it wasn't enough
Because now she had to kiss him goodbye
She had to leave for things were too rough
She had to let him go, no one dared ask why

Things just weren't the way they used to be
And all her tears couldn't bring it back
She couldn't live, she couldn't bear see
What it was she didn't do, what it was she lacked

She let him go before it was too late
And all the love she had� Had gone
She hoped and put it all to fate
Thinking that their dreaming wouldn't ever be done

Once a girl stood by the hill
and she wished so hard upon a star
Just standing, staring and wishing until
Her one final breath slowly began to� drift afar

I Wonder

A single tear ran down my cheek
I walked away you turned to speak
I left you standing on the snow
My lone witness...a falling crow

You held my hand
I pushed it away
I just couldn't stand
The things you'd say

I guess I've always wondered why
You couldn't just love me
And that however hard I try
The girl you love I could never be

I wonder why you love her so
Though she broke your heart
Why of her you couldn't let go
Though she's tearing you apart?

I wonder what you see in her
That you can't see in me
Why you wish you were together
Though she just wasn't free

I wonder if you feel for me
But I guess I'm just wishing helplessly
Because I know we're friends and always will
But why you can't love me, I wonder still

response:

My tears ran down my cheek
You walked away I turned to speak
You left me standing on the snow
While my silent tears began to flow

I held your hand
You pushed it away
I just couldn't demand you
To hear what I'd say

Maybe I've always wondered why
You always hid from me
Why no matter how hard I try
The girl I love I could never see

I wonder why I loved another
Though she broke my heart
I wonder why I thought we'd love forever
Though it was you from the start

I wonder why I fooled myself
To think it just wasn't you
Loving someone else
Though I knew it just couldn't be true

I wonder if you feel the way that I do
Hoping I could say I never loved her because I love you
But because we're friends and always will
I'll just stand here hoping...and wondering still

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The feeling that was meant for you
Is the feeling I tried to hide
A feeling which is painful and true
A feeling I wish would subside

But can't you see it's hard for me to let this feeling go
To hide the pain and misery to let this feeling show
Now I understand that I must look for someone new
Because even though I tried to hide, this feeling left me blue

Seeing you holding someone else's hand
Thinking to myself "This isn't what I planned"
I didn't think you would fall for someone else this deep
I didn't think my world would suddenly be so steep

But then I realized, maybe it's better this way
Maybe we weren't meant to be
Maybe we should just stay this way
I guess I should just wish that our friendship will be bound to last
Instead of just wishing I could be a part of your past

Sometimes

When I'm alone and I think of you
Sometimes it really hurts me
Knowing that I love you the way I do
And that I have to love by setting you free

I'm thinking of the person I am because of you
And sometimes it really pains me
Looking back as if it were really true
And not just the dream I thought it would be

When I remember how you make me smile
Sometimes I cant stop these tears from falling
Knowing that ill have to sit and wait awhile
Until I no longer feel whatever it is I'm feeling

I'm wishing for you as if wishes would run out
And sometimes I laugh at myself for doing so
Thinking how it scars me without a doubt
But all the same simply refusing to let you go

I'm saying this one silent prayer
And sometimes I wonder if he'll really listen
Because there really isn't much that I can offer
Except for the love I speak of all too often

Sometimes I hurt because I shouldn't love you anymore
Sometimes I cry because you're the only thing that keeps me sane
Sometimes I lie that my love for you has walked out the door
Sometimes I die because the truth is...I'm still loving you all in vain.

Door Of My Heart

I tried to lock the door of my heart
And decided to throw the key away
I tried to end it before it could start
But it wasn't enough, though I tried as hard as I may

I saw myself falling
though I placed my feet firmly on the ground
But I still kept falling
Because the key has been found

You unlocked the door and walked inside
holding the key in your hand
You searched for me and I tried to hide
behind the door where I did stand

You gave up searching
and went the other way
but still I held back what I was feeling
hoping you wouldn't leave and instead

Now I lie awake in my bed
and I look at the midnight sky
a million thoughts enter my head
thoughts of you and I begin to cry

And as I sleep I softly whisper to the stars
silently hoping you'd hear though you're far
These gentle words spoken true
I fell asleep whispering "I love you"

response:

You tried to lock the door of your heart
And decided to throw the key away
You wanted to end it before it could start
but I would find it, find the key one day

I saw the key falling
And finally fix itself on the ground
and I continued searching
Searching until the key had been found

I found it at last, unlocked the door and walked inside
holding the key in my hand
I searched for you but you seemed to hide
So by the door I waited where I did stand

I gave up searching
and went the other way
but that didn't mean I stopped loving
because I'll come back someday when you're ready, be back someday

Now I lie awake in my bed
Staring at the midnight sky
a million thoughts enter my head
a million thoughts yet never good bye

And as I sleep I softly whisper to the stars
Silently hoping you'd hear though you're far
These gentle words spoken true
I never will stop loving you

Something Wonderful

I dreamt of something wonderful
And just then I began to realize it was you
I was so happy that I found my heart to be full
Of thoughts that all the while you loved me too

I dreamt that we'd be together forever
And that you'd just hold me in your arms
Saying that you'd hurt me never
And that you'd keep me safe from all harm

I dreamt of starry skies
And spending them all with you
Staring into those eyes
Of yours that said my love is true

I dreamt of moonlit walks
By the shore of that deep blue sea
Lost, mesmerized, indulged in our talks
That most of the time involved you and me

I dreamt of my one true soul mate
And found out that all along it was you
Smiling because I knew it was worth the wait
And just about everything else I had to go through

I dreamt of watching that sunset
As I sit contentedly beside you
Reminiscing that time when we first met
And how you made me laugh the way you still do

I dreamt of a candlelit dinner
You so devotedly prepared for
How you found a rose that wouldn't wither
And how I couldn't ask for anything more

I dreamt of a stringed quartet
You hired especially for me
Covering my eyes just to let
The surprise be shown more extravagantly

I dreamt of how funny you are
Charming your way out of every argument
Thinking that you must come from someplace far
Because you're simply just heaven sent

I dreamt of being with you
And how every second left me ecstatically happy
Knowing that one second would do
Everything to make my life all too easy

I dreamt that you had found out
You weren't ready, and truly in love
It hurt me yes without a doubt
So hurt I cried to the one above

I dreamt of how you could leave so easily
With me here alone anguishing in pain
All because you realized you weren't ready
For the love that I offer you in vain

I dreamt of something wonderful...what we had
It was all too beautiful it made me so sad
To think that nothing may probably be what it seems
Because it was as if you loved me...only in my dreams.

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